God, do I ever need a new beginning…but it’s so hard to hope for sometimes. Discouragement comes so easily, and the past threatens to perpetuate into my future. It’s been such a summer of breaking and realizing. Really, it’s been hard to tell up from down this whole year. Seems like it’s been a series of broken relationships and shattered trust. Oh the anger I have experienced! And the loneliness. But amidst it all, I have had glimpses of Hope, short-lasting but beautiful.
But quite honestly, I think I have lost much of my trust and have been walking around in a bullet-proof vest, keeping others from getting close to me, as the Coldplay song goes. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dsz-EeNZBkI
How DO you hope for better things when the good things of life are overshadowed by the bullshit and pain of your experiences? Please help me to hold on to what I’ve been given lately, God. Your blessings. Help me to see those who love me. To embrace and love them in return. Help me to open my heart to sincere friends I have yet to meet.
Hope. Healing. Yes, you two…I’ll see you soon.
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